Twenty-eight years ago, I sat in my basement office at home grading final exams and term papers for my classes at the university where I taught. I remember muttering and bemoaning the ineptitude and incompetence of some of my Ph.D. students who couldn’t write a complete, grammatically correct sentence – let alone the mindless drivel poured out on many of the undergraduate papers. (This comes from a past life as a young widow supporting two small children by tutoring English.) Grading was a mind-numbing task that took days of work three to four times each semester, year in and year out. I remember making myself finish at least five papers before I allowed myself a break of no more than five or ten minutes lest I not finish the task by the required dead-line. I think the word “dead” aptly describes how I was beginning to feel after years of this routine.
After grading the required five papers one day, I remember bolting up the stairs to the kitchen to get a drink of water. No one else was home, so I turned on the television to try to stimulate my “deadened” brain cells. The program at the time was a national broadcast of a famous evangelist (spiritual advisor to several U.S. Presidents) preaching to a packed audience in a Texas football stadium. The first thing I heard him say was, “Judgment is mine, sayeth the Lord!” If he said it once, he said it at least five or six times in the next five minutes – my limit for the grading break – and it just didn’t sound right to me. I spent the next decade looking for the scriptural foundations for that phrase (in any religion) only to come up empty handed. Google or any other online search engines didn’t exist in those days, but if you “Google” that phrase today you will find hundreds of links (maybe more – I stopped counting) to books, articles, blogs, sermons, etc., but not one scriptural reference. The day I heard that snippet of sermon, I felt as if I had heard a lie, and intense searches over the years only confirmed my judgment.
Mystics of all religions, even Christian mystics, understand the phrase, “Judgment is mine, sayeth the Lord,” to mean at most that God reserves judgment for Him/Herself; the business of judgment is not for mankind. But even fundamentalists (of every religion) quote scriptural passages similar to “Judge not, that ye be not judged” (Matthew 7:1), and all of them (as nearly as I can tell) talk about a concept so much like “karma” (Oh, dear! That’s a heathen word!) that I can’t distinguish any difference. I know that most people will not agree with me on this, but that is their truth and they are entitled to it – without any judgment from me. Metaphysicians understand both of these phrases as referring to what Maitreya calls “The Hall of Mirrors.”
• “The Hall of Mirrors is a room in which the soul stands in front of a giant mirror and has to face itself. Its whole life is shown to it. It not only sees what it did to others, but it also feels the emotion and trauma that the other persons felt. It is at this time that many souls become extremely saddened and ashamed because they see all that they have done, the good and the bad. Usually at this stage, the soul does not want to move on and will make a request to contact someone in the physical world whom they knew – a family member, friend etc. – to give a message to or to say they are very sorry for what they did.” ~ Maitreya (Channeled by Margaret McElroy, Newsletter #22, September 16, 2001)
So why am I writing about this? I have been grappling with this issue for many years, but recent world events, as well as new insights into my current and past-life experiences have brought this issue front and center to my attention. For years I have been aware of it, but pushed it aside to deal with less painful issues. I can’t avoid it any longer. Consider the following as just a handful of recent events:
• April 15, 2014 more than 300 Nigerian schoolgirls were kidnapped by Islamic extremist group, Boko Haram, which also killed nearly 4,000 people in the first six months of 2014. The girls were “rescued” from western education and were to be sold as “wives” (a.k.a. sex slaves) to male militants.
• October 24, 2014 a 15-year-old freshman student at Marysville-Pilchuck High School shot five other students (fatally wounding four) and then shot himself.
• March 24, 2015 co-pilot Andreas Lubitz committed suicide by flying his Germanwings airliner into a mountain with 150 people on board.
• April 15, 2015 marked the one year anniversary of the Boston Marathon Bombing. Dzhokhar Tsarnaev has been judged guilty of the crime and is awaiting a sentence of either life in prison or death.
It is very difficult to be non-judgmental toward the perpetrators of these and countless other events. It is easy to say, “These were just deranged or sick people. The justice system – or maybe God – will see that they get their just rewards.” Well, I believe that God doesn’t judge, but we do. We judge others, and we judge ourselves, not only in the Hall of Mirrors after we transition back into Spirit, but every day as we go about the business of trying to raise our vibration. We just don’t think of it in those terms.
In the past few years, I have become aware of some of my past lives in which I judged others and judged myself for things done and not done. I carry those (generally subconscious) emotions with me every day, and they color my life in profound and often unseen ways – until I become aware of them at some point. Yes, I have repaid some of that karma and I’m still working on more of it, but it is very difficult to break the cycle of judgment and avoid incurring still more karma. As I’ve told my students for nearly 40 years, “If you’re looking for perfection, you are on the wrong planet.” The earth plane is a school, and the lessons come day by day, with occasional (it seems like constant) examinations thrown into our lives. Our purpose here is to grow, and that should be our primary objective. How do we do that? The usual list is an invaluable place to start:
• Your natal chart – What lessons and karma have you chosen to deal with in this incarnation?
• Spiritual counseling followed by introspection through meditation, journaling, etc.
• Various healing modalities (toning, Bach Flower Essences, chakra healing, etc.)
• Past-life regression and/or matrix reimprinting to discover, face, heal, and reprogram the subconscious
emotions and memories.
• Affirmations to reprogram the subconscious mind and change the energy.
But before we do any of that, we need to embrace the old adage, “Physician, heal thyself” (Luke 4:23). We have to take active responsibility for our own healing. Passive participation won’t do it. Reading an astrological report won’t do anything if we don’t act on it. Spiritual counseling won’t do anything if we don’t act on it. Various healing modalities won’t do anything if we don’t act on them. Having a past-life regression or matrix reimprinting session won’t do anything if we don’t act on it. And affirmations won’t do anything if we don’t act on them. How do we do that? Consciously. Deliberately. Constantly. Doggedly. And always with forgiveness to others and ourselves for what was done in ignorance or out of fear, shame, etc. In short, doing anything other than speaking our truth quietly and clearly with love.
I fully and consciously believe that man has absolutely no business with judgment, and I am working on my subconscious issues involving judgment. I am no longer angry with that famous evangelist for “lying” to me; his intentions were good and within the limits of his understanding as well as the masses who clung to his every word. I don’t need to forgive him for speaking his truth, only myself for blaming him for “lying” to me – my limited understanding at the time. I am toning, taking the Bach Flower Essences, and making progress with the past-life emotions and habits, but I still have a way to go. Don’t look for perfection from me; I’m still on this planet. Oh, and please forgive the scriptural references. I have been a cleric of many stripes in many past lives, and “Old habits die hard.” My goal is that they die before I do. In the meantime, I’m working with the following affirmation. Please forgive its somewhat unpolished form; it is a work in progress as am I.
I judge no man —
he only mirrors for me as I do for him.
I judge no man —
only lend a helping hand on his own path.
I judge no man —
except to call him “Friend.”
I judge no man —
except to see him as myself: a spark of the Divine, a soul on the path, my Brother.